Tuesday, January 24, 2012

God + Human + Brain + My Dreams

Dreams 48hr – 20Fri (00:00hr) – 22Sun (06:45hr)

[God + Human + Brain + My Dreams ] (ask Amma - mom)

2012 Jan……..01-03..04-14…15-19…20..23…

MY HEADACHE ,  PAIN AND BRAIN BLEED… IS THAT REAL !

CC:  Family + My Friend (Alex Amma Anns Anuj Biji Binta Elsie Georgekutty Girish Jaico Jeethu Jinu Georg Jiss Kanu Mathai Acha Matthew Merin Neema Nitesh Pius
Reno Roopa Sarah Sheby Sheeba Tennyson RevThomas Lynda Nancy Paul Preetha RevJoymathew Shyam Soju Thomasvp Eipe Viju Pramod)

CC:  Dr. – John, Soma, Andria …
My BLEED’s Dreams  : Praxis tasks, fine motor skills, and less word finding abilities... Automatics, numbers, days, months, singing, dysfluency and expressive language skills ... well as well as the worsening of the speech difficulties…
Sort , Common missing , Dizziness and  
Dreams + Real
Aphasia Loss of language
Apraxia Lost of praxis motor planning
Antonia Loss of names
Coediting automatics opposites sequence…123/mon-tue-wed/jan-feb-mar etc..
Nothing Will Be Impossible (Luke 1:37)


Prayer + Med + [Book: Read : (Mom) ]
(Book: Gift, Merin) God's Healing Words by Siloam, Siloam Authors
(CD: Gift, Nancy) MARK SCHULTZ LAUNCHES “THE RENAISSANCE TOUR” WITH JASON GRAY AND DAVID KLINKENBERG ON MARCH 10TH

o    Start 10:30pm 23/jan/2012, now
o    now 11:20
o    now 11:45 edit - start type…
o    now 24/jan/2012 02:30…
o    End


Sun 1/1/2012 02:50 AM… events ….

Jan 1: ER CDH MRI (Called)

ü  1 Jan 0250 Mail
o    Girsh
o    John L Villano
o    Marko
o    Annie
o    Acha 640p
o    Jeethu 7p
ü  Call
o    Nitesh
ü   
ü  1 Jan : PAIN – 3 pill day Vicodin
ü  2 Jan : PAIN – 1 pill day Vicodin
ü   
ü   



Jan 3: ER UIC MRI

ü  3Jan 0700 Mail
ü  No email…
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    Nitesh
ü  3 Jan : PAIN – 3-4 pill days Vicodin

subdural collection with reduced contrast enhancement with focal areas of cavitations that also appear to decreased in size. These effects may be due to the Avastin. Edema surrounding the surgical bed shows interval worsening with increasing mass effect an adjacent structures. Concern in raised that this increased edema may be producing the mass effect causing pain on the adjacent dura as well as well as the worsening of the speech difficulties…

 

MRI Report: 01/03/2012 , 12/01/2011 and dating back to 03/01/2008 ...

Multiple resections 19 Mar 2008, 19 Aug 2010 … Left front parietal craniotomy

Glioblastoma 3rd and Astrocytoma 1st / 2nd Anaplastic (Malignant, High Grade, III)

Now 3 cycles Avastin (8 Dec 2011)



Jan 4-14
ü  8Jan 0800 Mail
o    ProCure (CDH Proton)
o    Inna (NorthShore)
o    Jiss 1/11
o    Anns
ü  4 Jan : PAIN – 3-4 pill days Vicodin
ü  5 Jan : PAIN – 3-4 pill days Vicodin
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    Elsie
ü   
ü  6 Jan : PAIN – 3-4 pill days Vicodin
ü  7 Jan : NO PAIN
ü  8 Jan : PAIN – 4 pill days Vicodin
ü  9 Jan : PAIN – 2 pill days Vicodin
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    Elsie
ü  10 Jan : PAIN – 1 pill days Vicodin
ü  11 Jan : PAIN – 2 pill days Vicodin
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    Elsie
ü  12 Jan : PAIN – 4 pill days Vicodin

Dr. Ayers office called and I have set up an appointment to see him on Friday January 27th @ CDH. I will have my next Avastin treatment at UIC on January 25th 2011. After I see Dr. Ayers on the 27th Jay 2011, they will set up my Avastin treatment at CDH Cancer Center.


ü  13 Jan : PAIN – 2 pill days Vicodin
ü  13Jan : DEXAMETHASONE – 13Jan 6pm …
ü  14 Jan : NO PAIN
ü   


Jan 15-19
ü  15Jan 0250 Mail
o    Shyam
o    11am - Medical Details 2012 -16Jan – Inna, John, Soma
o     
o    16Jan 2p, - Acha – George & Me (mail)
o    18Jan Jeby – car
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    George
o    Nitesh
ü   
ü  15Jan NO PAIN
ü  16Jan NO PAIN

Met with Dr. Sweeney at CDH ProtonCure. Mock session and marking the site for radiation therapy on Mon 23’ Jan for ProCure Proton Therapy. They are trying to get approval from my insurance for the proton therapy. The financial advisor stated that all information has been submitted to my insurance today (Jan 19th - Jocelin – 630-821-6384) and it should take 1-2 weeks before I hear anything from them. My insurance is out of network and they are trying to get approval for in network and that is why it is taking time for approval.


ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    Elsie
ü  17Jan NO PAIN, SEIZURES 2am, 3-5min, 1.0mg , ASTHMA - 6-5 puff
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    Elsie
ü  18Jan NO PAIN, SEIZURES 2am, 3-5min, 1.0mg , ASTHMA - 4-5 puff

Yesterday and today morning have wheezing & difficulty breathing... I have seizure 17 Jan'11 - last 5 min. I take Lorazepam 1 mg. Yesterday and today i try buttoning, putting on watches, week right.


I met Dr. Herbert Engelhard, University of Illinois Hospital in Chicago and have been approved trial case. NovoCure "Novo TTF" (TTF stands for "tumor-treating fields"). NovoCure training session will be on Thursday January 26th. An MRI will be done for the trial every 2 month at UIC.



ü  19Jan NO PAIN, SEIZURES 2am, 3-5min, 0.5mg, ASTHMA - 2 puff…

 

Saw Andria Baumgartner- Speech Language Pathologist (CDH): Recommends skill therapy services- to focus on fill in sentences for word recall, and increase expressive language skill. She will fax you the notes from my visit. – Praxis tasks, buttoning, putting on watches, and fine motor skills, and less word finding abilities. Activity work: automatics, numbers, days, months, singing.

Goal: progressing and improvement and phoneme cues, less dysfluency.

Plan: focus on automatics, fill in sentences for work recall, breath support to show rate, and increase expressive language skills.



Jan 20 : Dreams? 11pm to 4am morning? Musical like ... Renaissance! Awake. or read meditation ... or "God healing words spokes through His word".

ü  Mail
o     Shyam – CD and Med Rec
o    Elsie
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    George
ü  20Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA

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(Friend CC)
I SEND that email…
My Friends Mail Attn…
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Jan 21-22 ...
ü  Mail
o    Shyam
o    Nitesh
o    Elsie
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    George
o    Nitesh
ü   
ü  21Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA
ü  22Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA
ü  8 to 1 pm : PRAYER, Read, Music  
ü  11:45 amma…
ü  11:30 ... sleepless 
ü  1am -5am: PRAYER, Read, Music  
ü  10:10 pm u+
ü   

NO PAIN, NO SEIZURES,
NO ASTHMA - HAPPY ... 2HR NAP [1-3PM] SOUND :-)

22Jan:
ü  Mail
o     Elsie
o     
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o    George
o    Nitesh
ü   
ü  22Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA
ü  300 pm :-) Sound nap
ü  800 pm … Music  
ü   
ü  200 am :) PRAYER, Read, Music  
ü  3:00 u+ ... Amma...
ü  2:00 Amma ... 
ü  1:10 u+
ü  Nap
ü  06:45 – Photo – Cat
ü  06:50 - Lynda Blue , mail – I call –
ü  07:20 - Church

Luke 1:37 ... I fell strong :) ... God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!
God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!

23Jan: Green Flag :) just came home ... Insurance say "OK" ... Mock session and marking done.

ü  Mail
o     Shyam
o     
ü  Call
o    Shyam
o     
ü   
ü  23Jan NO PAIN , NO SEIZURES,  NO ASTHMA
ü   
ü  3:00 u+ ... Amma...
ü  2:00 Amma ... 
ü  1:10 u+  
ü   
ü  0800pm: Nap (prayer , Amma+ Uncle + Aunty +ME)
ü  I tired…
ü  1035pm: watch time

 

I went to the Proton Therapy Center and completed the CT simulation, it will take about 10-12 business days for the planning team to complete my treatment plan.  A member from the team will contact me when the plan is ready and will schedule my treatment sessions.  At this point they anticipate it to start the week of February 1st.  The proton therapy has been approved by my insurance.

 

I understand that you will be scheduling the times for my medications once I start the Proton Therapy. 

Will you email me the medication name and the times I should take those medications.  I will be free tomorrow if you want to contact me and I will try to have my friend Elsie be part of the conversation with you. On Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, I am booked with appointments, but I will be free on Saturday again.

 

Currently, this is my medication schedule

6:30am DEXAMETHASONE

6:00 am FAMOTIDINE

7:00am Keppra

6:30pm DEXAMETHASONE

7:00pm Keppra


SULFAMETH/TMP DS TAB –

ONDANSETRON

TEMODAR

These 3 medications will be started during proton therapy.  How should I schedule these medications with the above medications.



God's way is perfect ...
All the Lord's promises prove true...
He is a shield for all who look to him for protection ... Psalm 18:30

24 TUE DONE – (Free MAN, Luke 1:37 ... I fell strong :) ... God's Healing Words Spoken Through His Word ... Amen!)

-      Jean Mathew


Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Who is our Fortress ?


I send this card to my colleague last month when we hear that he is down with some disease. Once I asked to him about his sickness; Later I came to know that here in USA, we are not allowed to ask personal questions in work environment. I just enquirer about his health issues so as to tell him some comforting words. So I decided to give my most beautiful photo that I took this year to him and here it goes. We all signed in the card and send it to him. I took this one on 28th Nov 2010 around 6:30 am when the temperature first came down below '0' Celsius...

Just like every fall days, If i get time to look through the windows during a semi cloudy day; i will spend time to see God's work enjoy the Sun rise and how it is putting and blending colors into the sky... 28th was special in the way it was... It's a bright day with scattered clouds... I stopped making the tea and rushed to take my camera and my jacket... Ran to the park and took few ; then ran to the pond where I can get both clouds and frozen water's reflection ....

After taking few pictures, I waited there for few more minutes... WOW... that's the only word that I was whispering when watching the Sun rise... It's so so cold out there; also I am holding my camera with my bare hand... ohho... its getting frozen... Let me go back to home. Made a tea and went back to my room. Suddenly I remember the verse that I send to my church group; But I already send that photo with the verse... This is the most suitable one for the below verse... But it's ok; I can use this as a card...


Psalm 65:8 - They also that dwell in the uttermost parts are afraid at thy tokens: thou makest the outgoings of the morning and evening to rejoice.

Would you know this life of triumph, victory all the way?
Then put God in the beginning of each coming day...
(28th Nov - Streams in the Desert)

After one month he came back to office and I got a mail from him...

"Hi Jean. Today was my first day back in the office... And thank you for the nice get well card while I was out. That was very thoughtful, and really meant a lot..."

I am so happy now... I make use of this card to make some one happy... :-)

These are the little things that we can do in our life for others ; as a return for what all God has done to all of us...

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

What to do when we face darkest hours in our life...

Read the below portion from Bible...

I Corinthians 10:13 - There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

I am here only because of the "GRACE" of God... Nothing else... I had a very memorable 2010 that God has given me.

My 2010 ends with a lot of pain due to my kidney stone and I am struggling the same till today... If you ever had a kidney stone pain; you can imagine how bad it is... but I am very happy now upon reading the above lines again and again...

I told some experience in my life based on this verses when I was visiting Philadelphia STECI Parsh on Mar 2010. My closest friend told me to read this over and over again to grab the internal meaning of this and how that can change our lives...

Why I am not able to put down all the things that I want to say and express in this blog? I wil try to bring up one by one...

How the verses became my source of encouragement ?
Have you ever faced death? What will be going to the mind of anyone who is going to operation theater with the knowledge that there is a 50/50 chance of survival? If you experience that sort for situation; it's very easy to get what I am going to say below... from my experience...

In Bible (from my understanding) temptation has few more meaning other than the literal meaning - it's trial that we faced / or trails that we are facing now... - It's the difficulties that we encountered in our life / pain and suffering that we are going through right now...

And this saying what if trails or sufferings overtaken you ? If you read it one more time; you can see that God is faithful and will give us pain or suffering or temptation that we cannot bear. God knows the lever of suffering that each one of us can hold on... God will not suffer anyone to be tempted above what they are able to bear because God made us like that.

continuing ...It's my Bed time now...